I wrote a post this morning about an interview project I wanted to begin. By this afternoon I knew I had to take that post down.
Because old habits die hard.
I realised that the things I have been working so hard to improve on, would lose my attention if I started up new time consuming projects. It’s an old habit of mine to self destruct. Right when you think you are going to start really seeing improvements or achievements in something you’re doing, you quickly find that very important new project to stop you in your progressive tracks. Very frustrating when you don’t see it coming.
I do have some great ideas of projects that I would love to work on. This is true. But now is not the best time to be putting my focus onto them.
Now is the time to focus on my own ballet experience. Now is the time for me to continue to dive into my love of ballet and learn to be the best I can be. I am craving improvement. I don’t know how much improvement I can achieve, but I do know that I want to give it my all.
I don’t think I was used to seeing better ballet as a possibility. But now I am seeing that. Yay! 😀 🙂 😀
Ballet is also my therapy. It is my healing. And honestly, my need for that therapy is more important now than my need to feed habitual and negative self-beliefs. In that way, I think the physical and emotional healing I get from ballet, is now extending to healing of self-beliefs. How incredible is that? I never would have thought when I started ballet that I would get so many benefits from it. I am so, so blessed. And there is more healing to be done. I am not done dancing, I’m just beginning. I have only just seen a glimpse of what is possible if I were to achieve my potential, and I’m all like “Yeah, let’s go there! Let’s go full potential!” LOL 😉
So, there it is. No interviews for now. Just ballet.
P.S — Always go full potential!