2014, what a hurricane of a year! Feels like I have swirled from pillar to post in one of the most tumultuous years of my life.
I remember feeling, on several occasions, that I wouldn’t be able to continue ballet. Either for health reasons or just because of my isolation.
But I’m still here. I’m not going anywhere. And I have gained some clarity around my ballet journey and health issues that I know will help me continue to follow my heart.
After all, following my heart is what this whole journey has been about. Following my heart is the thing that interests me the most. It’s such a mind-blowingly powerful thing when you feel it.
I remember on one of my trips to Studio Tibor in Sydney this year, I had a moment where I looked around and felt my heart radiating with joy. And I thought about how I had followed my heart here, to this moment, and how perfectly alive, in-sync, and at home I felt.
It staggered me to think that my heart knew exactly what I wanted, before my mind or body did — and they were just catching up.
In preparation for this 2014 wrap post I have collected photos from my year, and I have to say, it has been a most uplifting experience.
This year was really scary sometimes. Like REALLY scary. And those scary times kind of linger in the background and can make it difficult to move on.
But move on we must.
And moving on I am.
So, let’s have a little looksee back at 2014 (or at least some of it) …
The first thing I did in 2014, like within the first week of 2014, was to meet Tibor Horvath in person for the first time — AND have my first lesson from him.
It was a private lesson in his big beautiful studio, chandeliers and all. It was incredible!
It was a great start to the year.
There’s a line in the movie Annie about it being a bitter sweet thing to get a taste of something you can’t get any more of. And I felt exactly that bitter sweetness after that first lesson.
As we hit the road for home, I felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest more and more as every kilometer passed. I had now had a taste of Studio Tibor life — and I didn’t want to leave it.
As we drove, I cried silently, and nursed my aching heart with the promise that I would return to that glorious studio again.
And I did. 🙂
The following month I jumped on a plane…
… and flew to Sydney for a class and a private with Tibor. It was glorious again.
A few months of health issues made my ballet journey a bit up and down.
Then in August I flew back down again. This time I had a private with Tibor and took my first class with Vadym. I loved, loved, loved that day! Amazing!
And I was determined enough to get my derriere back down again in September. I did the same private with Tibor and class with Vadym. This combination was proving to be absolutely amazing for me and my ballet. It’s the most heavenly combo ever! 🙂
The beautiful Tibor. Ballet, in every manifest, flows through this guy’s veins. He walks into the room and you go, “Oh, ballet just arrived.”
The beautiful Tricia. This lady is one of my adult ballet inspirations. She’s so beautiful to watch that sometimes when we’re in a class together I want to stop what I’m doing and just watch her dance. She has the attitude that Tibor wants me to have. And I can see why.
I was weaker during this trip. I wasn’t fully aware at the time, but in hindsight we know that my body was going down a little, and it affected my physical ability during this session and Vadym’s class afterwards. I was shakier, and my leg muscles were just collapsing.
BUT it was still a beautiful day. One of the best actually. Funny how that happens.
I got meself my first pair of point shoes!
And then I got my second pair…
I kicked up my toes with some celebratory ballet at the river…
Built a mini studio in the bedroom.
Made up some new moves…
Started getting my strength back…
And became Giselle…
Wowsers! Turns out I did a whole bunch of awesome stuff this year! I really made stuff happen.
I achieved things I never would have thought possible before.
I challenged my self-beliefs.
I followed my heart, in spite of the fear.
And I felt the magic moment of arrival. The moment you arrive at your heart’s destination. Bathing in it. Soaking it up.
Following my heart was my favourite part of this year. I really just went for it.
This coming 2015 I hope to continue going for it, but I will be aiming for more consistency.
I will be following my heart, but remaining aware of what my body and mind need in order to keep following my heart.
2015 will be full of heart-following, loving, dancing, Studio Tibor, QLD Ballet, my beautiful little family, travelling, writing, dreaming, studio building, laughing with friends and body maintenance.
I wish everyone a wonderful end to 2014 and happy, glowing dreams of contentment and good moments for 2015.
Thanks for being part of my 2014 ride!